July 2nd, 2004

Subject: Friendship Time: 07:50 pm

A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears. A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in their address book. A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and clean. A simple friend hates it when you call after they have gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call. A simple friend seeks to talk with you about their problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems. A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it. A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps themself. <-- (HAHAHA i'm always like that its pretty bad) A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you.

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Subject: i just don't know what to do... Time: 05:51 pm Current Mood: tired

blah blah blah = relationships anyhow, besides that... Warped Tour 2004! So first, I would like to say thanks to Alvin for hooking us up (well kinda) with the tickets and then Wanger + Nick for not only picking me up when I was late, but walking back to the car after I found out you couldn't take in digi cams or backpacks. Bands: Yellowcard, FLOGGING MOLLY!!!!, NOFX, New Found Glory, The Sounds, Story of the Year, The Rolling Blackouts, The Berets (they sucked) Bands (we kinda saw - like were sitting down): Guttermouth, The Casualties, Alkaline Trio, Coheed & Cambria, The Vandals, Bad Religion (we left early - i'm sad because wanted to hear the LEGENDS..but they were my ride, so oh well) Bands (I wish I saw): Thursday, Go Betty Go, Ima Robot, and Mae Bought: $9 worth of food, $5 Warped 2004 cd, $5 Punk o' rama 9 cd, $15 Flogging Molly Shirt Got (for free): STICKERS, and other band shit, and signatures of three of the members of Flogging Molly Annoying: Walking all the way to the entrance and finding out I couldn't bring in my backpack (I REALLY SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PURSE!) and scary mosh pit people... I had an awesome time, got burnt, got free shit, and inhaled tons of cigarette/cigar smoke and smoke from illegal activities. Decided that being a little asian girl at concerts sucks - I still look way too asian to be at these concerts..but still loved it! Um, it was totally worth the $37 - the bands were amazing, I think the best ones that we saw were Yellowcard, Flogging Molly (obviously), Story of the Year. The Vandals, and The Rolling Blackouts. The really random thing that happened was that Bad Religion was on the main stage next to Story of the Year and they were suppose to start after Story of the Year finished. However, they started like before Story of the Year could start their last song, and so Story of the Year and Bad Religion were playing at the same time. Personally, I think Story of the Year should have stopped playing and deferred to Bad Religion, but whatever. Yeah and the Rolling Blackouts are this band that played on the little Hurley stage - very good band I would have to say. Lots of Troy people there too..and very little asian people - and all of the asian people that were there were like white-washed. It was quite an interesting crowd of your general abercrombie girls, punk rock kids, emo kids, and general rock kids. Just interesting. And also there was the Code of the Cutz stage where we saw some random rappers - some of them were actually pretty funny.. It wasn't too hot in the morning, but it did warm up later which gave me a major headache, but by the time we left you wanted to put on a jacket. Also its funny because the stages (themselves) have kinda a VIP section - well basically its just on stage behind the band. Its really random to see like old people and other people just standing around behind the band. When I mean VIP - its like you know how at normal concerts like there are seats and VIP get all the good seats, well that's what I mean. We also didn't have to pay for parking (YES!) and just parked at Troy and moseyed on over...lastly, I feel sorry for the CSUF grass on the soccer fields - it got MANGLED!

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June 6th, 2004

Subject: Procrastinating... Time: 01:57 pm

*I changed the instructions because I like these better... INSTRUCTIONS: 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Change anything so that it is true for you and strike out (using < s >) whatever is not. 3. You can unstrike out stuff too, but you should delete stuff that the other person struck out at the end of doing this. (Like if you like broccoli, but not spinach, just unstrike broccoli and delete completely spinach - or you can strike it out.) 4. Bold things that you have added. 5. Do whatever you feel like it - Just make it look pretty. 01. When I was younger, I made I make some bad decisions 02. I don't watch too much TV these days 03. I love broccoli spinach. 04. I love sleeping 05. I have loads of books 06. I once slept in a toilet in the ground. 07. I love playing video games 08. I adore marijuana smoothies. 09. I watch porn movies 10. I watch "One Tree Hill" 11. I like sharks dolphins. 12. I love spiders stuffed animals, they are adorable, especially the ones with bright colors on their backs 13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair 14. I like HATE George W. Bush 15. People are cool 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year 17. I have a Toyota Nissan and a pool 18. I have a lot to learn 19. I carry my knife protection everywhere with myself 20. I'm really, really smart crazy. 21. I've never broken someone's bones 22. I have a secrets 23. I hate rain 24. I drink health juice 25. Punk rock rules 26. I hate would love to be Bill Gates 27. I love Vietnamese food 28. I would hate like to be famous 29. I am not a morning person 30. I have semi-long hair 31. I have short hair 32. I have potential 33. I'm pure Afghan Chinese 34. My legs are two different sizes I refuse to believe my legs are identical... 35. I have an evil twin 36. I wear those long ass socks 37. I can roll my tongue. eyes. 38. I like hate the way that I look 39. I'm obsessed with italian food 40. I know how to french braid 41. I can be pessimistic or optimistic whenever I want 42. I have a lot of mood swings 43. I skateboard/snowboard 44. I think that skateboarders are HOT 45. I'm in love with a band 46. I have no talent 47. I'm always sometimes hyper no matter how much sugar I have 48. I think that I'm popular a dork. 49. I am currently single 50. I can swim 51. My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue 52. I practically live on the comp 53. I love to shop 54. I wouldn't classify myself. as either punk or goth 55. I would classify myself as ghetto 56. I'm a prep, shop at abercrombie/american eagle*, and ADMIT IT. 57. I'm obsessed with my xanga. LIVEJOURNAL! 58. I don't hate anyone 59. I know how to square dance 60. I have a unibrow 61. I'm completely embarassed to be seen with my mom 62. I have a cell phone 63. I believe in God. 64. I watch MTV on a daily basis. 65. I know how to play the tuba the flute and piano. 66. I need coffee to live. 67. I have had a boyfriends before 68. I've rejected someone before 69. I currently like someone and they have no idea that I like them 70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life 71. I want to have kids when I get older 72. I haven't changed a diaper before 73. I've called the cops on a friend before 74. I bite peel my nails 75. I crack my have knuckles. 76. I'm not allergic to anything everything. 77. I love broadway plays, and have been to at least 3 78. I have no idea who the 38th president was. 79. I plan on seeing Mary Kate and Ashley's new movies 80. I am completely shy myself around the opposite sex 81. I'm online 24/7 82. I have at least 25 away messages saved 83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party 84. I loved Rush Hour 85. I've read all of the Harry Potter trilogy 86. If I were a dwarf, I would be Dopey 87. When I was a kid I played with G.I. Joe remote controlled cars 88. I don’t mind country music 89. I would die for my friends - Well some of them... 90. I think that Juicy Fruit Winterfresh is the best type of gum 91. I watch soap operas whenever I can 92. I'm paranoid (sometimes) 93. I would love to be demi moore because ashton kutchers a major hottie 94. I love the Beatles.. they're classic 95. I know all the words to 'I'm a barbie girl' 96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy 97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. 98. I like watching movies 99. I want this damned thing to be over! 100. I'm happy. procrastinating.

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May 25th, 2004

Subject: musings. Time: 10:19 pm

life is tiring, to the extent that it completely drains you. it steals your humanity, your soul, your mind you are on auto pilot - that's why we only use less than 10% of our brain it has all been stolen intelligence is always lost truth is blurred only greys exist in this plane but perhaps this plane does not exist at all we are merely vessels that are empty and have been corrupted the lucky realize this the unlucky remain dumb but perhaps i am all wrong - but what if i'm not? sure i'm crazy. but aren't we all?

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May 9th, 2004

Subject: here's my random post. Time: 10:05 am Current Mood: sore

So first things first, if you love your mother, then wish her "Happy Mother's Day" and if you don't, but are worried that she is going to take away your college money, wish her the same, and make sure you got her a really good gift. That is all I have to say. My bear says hello. Can I just say how funny this is (stolen from fever_dream): why aren't you a terrorist? if you smoke weed you're a terrorist [madrid bombers sold drugs]. if you're 15 and making political art, you're a terrorist [secret service questions boy]. if you're a teacher, you're a terrorist [teacher's union is terrorist threat]. if you're pro-choice, you're a terrorist [the notorious karen hughes] looks like, if you're not flag-waving you're bomb-making. now get to it! And now, an amazing commentary on how everybody cheats:

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May 4th, 2004

Subject: Another interesting article... Time: 08:49 pm

Making and breaking corporate reputations on the Internet By JUDY OLIAN 04.30.2004 Every day, thousands of messages about innumerable companies are posted on the Internet, each with the potential to make or break corporate reputations. Some come from the actual companies as press releases or flattering news items planted by employees masquerading as Joe Smith. Other messages are from consumers offering honest reviews of products or services, community activists, disgruntled employees and consumers _ or people who simply enjoy perverting the news. ( rest of article... )

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May 3rd, 2004

Subject: Survey Time: 04:30 pm

</td></td></td></td></td></td> The Generic Teenager Stereotype Do you drink [alcohol]?: nope, tried some - not very tasty...maybe it'll change, but i'll never be a drunk Do you party a lot? How often?: nope - but i play poker and go out with my friends Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: nope How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: maybe once, but more likely once or twice a day Do you skip classes? How often?: yeah, but only for being a dork because i don't finish my homework Do you have casual sex? Protected?: nope Do you steal?: nope Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: nope Do you drool over celebrities?: oh god yes Do you watch a lot of TV?: yes Do you ever watch the News?: yes, but i only watch cnn and mostly i read because tv news is dumb Do you even care about world issues?: hell ya, dude stupid conservatives Do you read books often?: yeah Are you failing a lot of your classes?: nope, never Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: yeah, they rock Do you smoke cigarettes?: nope Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: not really, only to shop Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: sure, i guess, i dunno, i'm confused Do you cuss a lot?: yeah Are you desperate to fit in?: yeah, but everybody is Are you intelligent?: i fake it The Goth Stereotype Black lipstick?: nope Black eyeliner?: yeah Black eyeshadow?: nope Black trenchcoat?: sure Black boots?: fun Black fishnets?: nope Black nail polish?: nope, don't really do nail polish Cigarettes?: nope Heavy metal music?: sure, rock rox my sox Marilyn Manson?: yeah, some of his stuff Kittie?: HUH? Cradle of Filth?: uh.. Constant frown and perpetual angst?: eh, on the inside Do you like to be seen as: Are you an intellectual?: sure? An atheist?: eh, not really Horrible home life?: not really... Hopelessly depressed?: maybe? Suffering with suicidal idealations?: every so often, but then again, who doesn't Self-mutilation?: eh, not really interested in the pain The Punk Stereotype Plaid?: 80's Big black boots?: i want to own some Mohawk?: i'd love to by vanessa and mika already did it Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: ouch Loud, confident and opinionated?: in politics Wild hair colors?: see the mohawk comment NOFX?: yeah - franco unamerican Rancid?: dude yeah! Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: most stuff - but some stuff more than other.. A: huh? The Jock Sterotype What's your IQ?: hopefully above 100 Do you watch a lot of sports?: yeah, college football, tennis, gymnastics Play a lot of sports?: totally - tennis, swimming, b-ball Talk a lot about sports?: eh, sometimes, depending who i'm well Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?: yeah Are you arrogant?: not really Are you a male or female whore?: HAHAHA Are you homophobic?: nope. Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: not really... But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?: YEAH Boobs = yes?: have them Parties = yes?: :: shrugs :: - not so much Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?: nope. The Girl Stereotype Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?: depends..dances, yeah, everyday, not so much Have you ever been on a diet?: yeah How much did you lose?: haha..failed miserably Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?: nah - i love food too much Make yourself throw up?: bulemia..nope (is that how you spell it?) Make-up?: sometimes Low-cut tops?: only with a good bra How big are your boobies? [Cup size]: Bish Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: yeah Giggle a lot?: not really What's the deal with boys?: ugh, a pain, but nice to looka at Thongs?: ouch. (but sometimes necessary) Pretty bras?: yeah YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?: used to, but now mostly just flip friend's Who's the weaker sex?: why does there have to be a weaker? what about equal? Are you a feminist?: yeah Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?: TOTALLY! How often do you shave your legs?: well, during tennis season, every week, when i wear pants, never, when i wear skirts/shorts, once a week... How about your armpits?: yeah, same dealio (tank tops, etc) Are you emotional?: yeah Especially when on your period?: i don't really notice a difference This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.] Originality or Acceptance?: both Independence or Companionship?: both, but more independence - i mean its always smart to lean on friends, etc.. Stability or Freedom?: freedom, but truly - stability..i mean come on! $$$ Personal or Interpersonal?: both i guess? Introvert or Extrovert?: more of an introvert Popularity or Isolation?: some nice inbetween area Unique or Loved?: why can't you have both? Understood or Individual?: i'm an individual who is understood You or Them?: everybody How Stereotypical You Are... brought to you by BZOINK!

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