Thoughts & Ramblings

Friendship

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 02:51:55 GMT

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in their address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after they have gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about their problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps themself. <-- (HAHAHA i'm always like that its pretty bad)

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you.

i just don't know what to do...

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 01:06:08 GMT

blah blah blah = relationships

anyhow, besides that...

Warped Tour 2004!

So first, I would like to say thanks to Alvin for hooking us up (well kinda) with the tickets and then Wanger + Nick for not only picking me up when I was late, but walking back to the car after I found out you couldn't take in digi cams or backpacks.

Bands: Yellowcard, FLOGGING MOLLY!!!!, NOFX, New Found Glory, The Sounds, Story of the Year, The Rolling Blackouts, The Berets (they sucked)

Bands (we kinda saw - like were sitting down): Guttermouth, The Casualties, Alkaline Trio, Coheed & Cambria, The Vandals, Bad Religion (we left early - i'm sad because wanted to hear the LEGENDS..but they were my ride, so oh well)

Bands (I wish I saw): Thursday, Go Betty Go, Ima Robot, and Mae

Bought: $9 worth of food, $5 Warped 2004 cd, $5 Punk o' rama 9 cd, $15 Flogging Molly Shirt

Got (for free): STICKERS, and other band shit, and signatures of three of the members of Flogging Molly

Annoying: Walking all the way to the entrance and finding out I couldn't bring in my backpack (I REALLY SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PURSE!) and scary mosh pit people...

I had an awesome time, got burnt, got free shit, and inhaled tons of cigarette/cigar smoke and smoke from illegal activities.

Decided that being a little asian girl at concerts sucks - I still look way too asian to be at these concerts..but still loved it!

Um, it was totally worth the $37 - the bands were amazing, I think the best ones that we saw were Yellowcard, Flogging Molly (obviously), Story of the Year. The Vandals, and The Rolling Blackouts. The really random thing that happened was that Bad Religion was on the main stage next to Story of the Year and they were suppose to start after Story of the Year finished. However, they started like before Story of the Year could start their last song, and so Story of the Year and Bad Religion were playing at the same time. Personally, I think Story of the Year should have stopped playing and deferred to Bad Religion, but whatever. Yeah and the Rolling Blackouts are this band that played on the little Hurley stage - very good band I would have to say.

Lots of Troy people there too..and very little asian people - and all of the asian people that were there were like white-washed. It was quite an interesting crowd of your general abercrombie girls, punk rock kids, emo kids, and general rock kids. Just interesting.

And also there was the Code of the Cutz stage where we saw some random rappers - some of them were actually pretty funny..

It wasn't too hot in the morning, but it did warm up later which gave me a major headache, but by the time we left you wanted to put on a jacket.

Also its funny because the stages (themselves) have kinda a VIP section - well basically its just on stage behind the band. Its really random to see like old people and other people just standing around behind the band. When I mean VIP - its like you know how at normal concerts like there are seats and VIP get all the good seats, well that's what I mean.

We also didn't have to pay for parking (YES!) and just parked at Troy and moseyed on over...lastly, I feel sorry for the CSUF grass on the soccer fields - it got MANGLED!

Procrastinating...

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 21:21:27 GMT

*I changed the instructions because I like these better...

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Change anything so that it is true for you and strike out (using < s >) whatever is not.
3. You can unstrike out stuff too, but you should delete stuff that the other person struck out at the end of doing this. (Like if you like broccoli, but not spinach, just unstrike broccoli and delete completely spinach - or you can strike it out.)
4. Bold things that you have added.
5. Do whatever you feel like it - Just make it look pretty.

01. ~~When I was younger, I made~~ I make ~~some~~ bad decisions
02. I ~~don't~~ watch too much TV these days
03. I love ~~broccoli~~ spinach.
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept ~~in a toilet~~ in the ground.
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore ~~marijuana~~ smoothies.
09. I watch ~~porn~~ movies
10. I watch "One Tree Hill"
11. I like ~~sharks~~ dolphins.
12. I love ~~spiders~~ stuffed animals, they are adorable, especially the ones with bright colors on their backs
13. I was born with~~out~~ hair and I still have no hair
14. I ~~like~~ HATE George W. Bush
15. People are cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a ~~Toyota~~ Nissan and a pool
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my ~~knife~~ protection everywhere with myself
20. I'm really, really ~~smart~~ crazy.
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secrets
23. I hate rain
24. I drink health juice
25. Punk rock rules
26. I ~~hate~~ would love to be Bill Gates
27. I love Vietnamese food
28. I would ~~hate~~ like to be famous
29. I am ~~not~~ a morning person
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have ~~short~~ hair
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure ~~Afghan~~ Chinese
34. My legs are two different sizes I refuse to believe my legs are identical...
35. I have an evil twin
36. I wear ~~those long ass~~ socks
37. I can roll my ~~tongue.~~ eyes.
38. I ~~like~~ hate the way that I look
39. I'm obsessed with italian food
40. I know how to french braid
41. I can be pessimistic or optimistic whenever I want
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I skateboard/snowboard
44. I think that skateboarders are HOT
45. I'm in love with a band
46. I have no talent
47. I'm ~~always~~ sometimes hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm ~~popular~~ a dork.
49. I am currently single
50. I can swim
51. My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
52. I practically live on the comp
53. I love to shop
54. I wouldn't classify myself. ~~as either punk or goth~~
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I~~'m a prep,~~ shop at abercrombie/american eagle*, and ADMIT IT.
57. I'm obsessed with my ~~xanga.~~ LIVEJOURNAL!
58. I ~~don't~~ hate ~~anyone~~
59. I know how to square dance
60. I have a ~~uni~~brow
61. I'm completely embarassed to be seen with my mom
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe ~~in God.~~
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I know how to play ~~the tuba~~ the flute and piano.
66. I need ~~coffee~~ to live.
67. I have ~~had a boy~~friends before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently like someone and they have no idea that I like them
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have kids when I get older
72. I haven't changed a diaper before
73. I've called ~~the cops on~~ a friend before
74. I ~~bite~~ peel my nails
75. I ~~crack my~~ have knuckles.
76. I'm ~~not~~ allergic to ~~anything~~ everything.
77. I love broadway plays~~, and have been to at least 3~~
78. I have no idea who the 38th president was.
79. I plan on seeing ~~Mary Kate and Ashley's new~~ movies
80. I am ~~completely shy~~ myself around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7
82. I have ~~at least 25~~ away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol ~~or drugs~~ at a party
84. I loved Rush Hour
85. I've read all of the Harry Potter trilogy
86. If I were a dwarf, I would be Dopey
87. When I was a kid I played with ~~G.I. Joe~~ remote controlled cars
88. I don’t mind country music
89. I would die for my friends - Well some of them...
90. I think that ~~Juicy Fruit~~ Winterfresh is the best type of gum
91. I watch soap operas ~~whenever I can~~
92. I'm paranoid ~~(sometimes)~~
93. I would love to be demi moore ~~because ashton kutchers a major hottie~~
94. I love the Beatles.. they're classic
95. I know all the words to 'I'm a barbie girl'
96. Halloween is awesome ~~because you get free candy~~
97. ~~I watch Spongebob Squarepants and~~ I like it.
98. I like watching movies
99. I want this damned thing to be over!
100. I'm ~~happy.~~ procrastinating.

musings.

Wed, 26 May 2004 05:30:07 GMT

life is tiring, to the extent that it completely drains you.
it steals your humanity, your soul, your mind
you are on auto pilot - that's why we only use less than 10% of our brain
it has all been stolen
intelligence is always lost
truth is blurred
only greys exist in this plane
but perhaps this plane does not exist at all
we are merely vessels
that are empty and have been corrupted
the lucky realize this
the unlucky remain dumb
but perhaps i am all wrong - but what if i'm not?
sure i'm crazy.
but aren't we all?

here's my random post.

Sun, 09 May 2004 17:21:33 GMT

So first things first, if you love your mother, then wish her "Happy Mother's Day" and if you don't, but are worried that she is going to take away your college money, wish her the same, and make sure you got her a really good gift. That is all I have to say. My bear says hello.

Can I just say how funny this is (stolen from fever_dream):

why aren't you a terrorist?

if you smoke weed you're a terrorist [madrid bombers sold drugs].

if you're 15 and making political art, you're a terrorist [secret service questions boy].

if you're a teacher, you're a terrorist [teacher's union is terrorist threat].

if you're pro-choice, you're a terrorist [the notorious karen hughes]

looks like, if you're not flag-waving you're bomb-making. now get to it!

And now, an amazing commentary on how everybody cheats:

Another interesting article...

Wed, 05 May 2004 03:50:01 GMT

Making and breaking corporate reputations on the Internet
By JUDY OLIAN
04.30.2004

Every day, thousands of messages about innumerable companies are posted on the Internet, each with the potential to make or break corporate reputations. Some come from the actual companies as press releases or flattering news items planted by employees masquerading as Joe Smith. Other messages are from consumers offering honest reviews of products or services, community activists, disgruntled employees and consumers _ or people who simply enjoy perverting the news.

Before the Internet, wacky people spreading false rumors were easily dismissed. Without access to mass communication channels, their allegations had limited reach and they had to exert substantial effort to be seen or heard. On the Internet, however, anyone can be anonymous, and there are few means to separate credible or responsible commentators from malicious sources with an axe to grind.

With the Internet approaching one billion users, reputations can be destroyed with the speed and ferocity of a devastating hurricane. In one example, calls to boycott retailing giant Target were repeated across the country because the store had refused to support a fundraising drive for the Vietnam Veterans Memorial. Target was represented as a French company unfriendly to Americans. But there was one problem. The allegations were false. They were started by a chain e-mail with consequences serious enough to prompt Target to launch a concerted counter e-mail and media campaign to correct the record. And, by the way, Target is a U.S. corporation.

Web sites offer consumer, community or shareholder groups significant power in shaping corporate reputations.

_ Savedisney.com is Roy Disney's creation to organize support for his drive to dump Michael Eisner as head of Disney.

_ McSpotlight.org is a Web destination for those critical of the McDonald's Corporation.

_ At MSboycott.com, visitors can access more than 160 Web sites disparaging Microsoft.

_ Untied.com is a channel to gripe about United Airlines.

There are 7,800 sucks.com websites specific to companies across the globe that invite complaints from any aggrieved Internet subscriber, anywhere. And if trends in Europe are an indication, text messaging on cell phones will be the next sponsored advertising and communications medium, adding to the channels through which news and rumors are transmitted instantly.

Companies have little legal recourse when irresponsible and unfounded cyber campaigns damage their reputation. The case for libel is hard to establish. Often, the cyber culprits can't be located because they hide behind pseudo-identities on the Internet. In addition, any attempts to limit Internet expression _ accurate or inaccurate _ are aggressively contested by a variety of Internet user groups as a threat to the First Amendment.

So what can a company do to protect its reputation? In his new book, "The 18 Immutable Laws of Corporate Reputation," Wall Street Journal reporter Ron Alsop describes how corporate reputations are built and where they are most vulnerable. He notes the significant power of the Internet to create and destroy reputations.

Alsop writes about the Gillette Company, which contracts outsiders to monitor 8 million Web pages daily to find uses and misuses of any Gillette products, trademarks or mention of the company that may be harmful. If any references pose risks to Gillette's reputation, company lawyers step in to protect the brand.

Daily mining of the Internet to monitor news about a company has become big business. Cyber-monitoring firms such as Brand Intelligence, eWatch, CyberAlert, Cyveillance and NetDetect are contracted by companies to monitor Internet chat rooms and Web sites and pick up looming reputational threats or infringements on corporate intellectual property.

The Internet can also reinforce corporate reputations. Target's Web site includes a point-by-point rebuttal of its alleged refusal to sponsor the Vietnam Memorial. Coke has a permanent "Myths and Rumors" button on its Web site to address the inevitable rumors.

Alsop writes that in response to damaging publicity regarding sweatshop manufacturing, Nike offers a virtual Web tour of a Vietnamese factory that makes Nike products. The user can observe the manufacturing plant and, at the same time, hear Nike's side of the story.

Companies can exploit the benefits of viral marketing on the Internet. An online "mockumentary" developed by Volvo and shown in Europe earned cult following and created buzz. Advertising Age reported increased visits to Volvo's website and dealers in several European countries each time the piece ran.

Unfortunately, research indicates that consumers' attention to, and recall of, negative information outweighs their awareness of positive news. With regard to the Internet, that means that the impact of a cybersmear will be much more significant and lasting than a parallel positive message. And with the scale, speed and reach of the Internet, that's a scary thought.

No wonder corporate public relations departments have turned their attention to sleuthing the Internet. A misstep could be very costly.

(Judy Olian is dean of Penn State University's Smeal College of Business and a leading expert on strategic human resources management.)

Survey

Mon, 03 May 2004 23:30:14 GMT

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The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:	nope, tried some - not very tasty...maybe it'll change, but i'll never be a drunk
Do you party a lot? How often?:	nope - but i play poker and go out with my friends
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:	nope
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:	maybe once, but more likely once or twice a day
Do you skip classes? How often?:	yeah, but only for being a dork because i don't finish my homework
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:	nope
Do you steal?:	nope
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:	nope
Do you drool over celebrities?:	oh god yes
Do you watch a lot of TV?:	yes
Do you ever watch the News?:	yes, but i only watch cnn and mostly i read because tv news is dumb
Do you even care about world issues?:	hell ya, dude stupid conservatives
Do you read books often?:	yeah
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:	nope, never
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:	yeah, they rock
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	nope
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:	not really, only to shop
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:	sure, i guess, i dunno, i'm confused
Do you cuss a lot?:	yeah
Are you desperate to fit in?:	yeah, but everybody is
Are you intelligent?:	i fake it
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:	nope
Black eyeliner?:	yeah
Black eyeshadow?:	nope
Black trenchcoat?:	sure
Black boots?:	fun
Black fishnets?:	nope
Black nail polish?:	nope, don't really do nail polish
Cigarettes?:	nope
Heavy metal music?:	sure, rock rox my sox
Marilyn Manson?:	yeah, some of his stuff
Kittie?:	HUH?
Cradle of Filth?:	uh..
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:	eh, on the inside
Do you like to be seen as:
Are you an intellectual?:	sure?
An atheist?:	eh, not really
Horrible home life?:	not really...
Hopelessly depressed?:	maybe?
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:	every so often, but then again, who doesn't
Self-mutilation?:	eh, not really interested in the pain
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:	80's
Big black boots?:	i want to own some
Mohawk?:	i'd love to by vanessa and mika already did it
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:	ouch
Loud, confident and opinionated?:	in politics
Wild hair colors?:	see the mohawk comment
NOFX?:	yeah - franco unamerican
Rancid?:	dude yeah!
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:	most stuff - but some stuff more than other..
A:	huh?
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:	hopefully above 100
Do you watch a lot of sports?:	yeah, college football, tennis, gymnastics
Play a lot of sports?:	totally - tennis, swimming, b-ball
Talk a lot about sports?:	eh, sometimes, depending who i'm well
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:	yeah
Are you arrogant?:	not really
Are you a male or female whore?:	HAHAHA
Are you homophobic?:	nope.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:	not really...
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:	YEAH
Boobs = yes?:	have them
Parties = yes?:	:: shrugs :: - not so much
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:	nope.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:	depends..dances, yeah, everyday, not so much
Have you ever been on a diet?:	yeah
How much did you lose?:	haha..failed miserably
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:	nah - i love food too much
Make yourself throw up?:	bulemia..nope (is that how you spell it?)
Make-up?:	sometimes
Low-cut tops?:	only with a good bra
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:	Bish
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:	yeah
Giggle a lot?:	not really
What's the deal with boys?:	ugh, a pain, but nice to looka at
Thongs?:	ouch. (but sometimes necessary)
Pretty bras?:	yeah
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:	used to, but now mostly just flip friend's
Who's the weaker sex?:	why does there have to be a weaker? what about equal?
Are you a feminist?:	yeah
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:	TOTALLY!
How often do you shave your legs?:	well, during tennis season, every week, when i wear pants, never, when i wear skirts/shorts, once a week...
How about your armpits?:	yeah, same dealio (tank tops, etc)
Are you emotional?:	yeah
Especially when on your period?:	i don't really notice a difference
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:	both
Independence or Companionship?:	both, but more independence - i mean its always smart to lean on friends, etc..
Stability or Freedom?:	freedom, but truly - stability..i mean come on! $$$
Personal or Interpersonal?:	both i guess?
Introvert or Extrovert?:	more of an introvert
Popularity or Isolation?:	some nice inbetween area
Unique or Loved?:	why can't you have both?
Understood or Individual?:	i'm an individual who is understood
You or Them?:	everybody

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